freaking.. listen.. count down... grr...

ppl dun listen do they? or at least... do they even bother to try? haha.... communication is the key to everything... everything... gosh... i wish some ppl could juz keep their gap and juz listen... instead of juz gg on and on and on.... *sigh* after the NKF saga... there's a need for transparency for almost everything... haha... well... i guess its good lar... if onli ppl put it into practise...

the initial D ost is good... haa... althou i prefer onli 2 of the 16 songs... track 9 and 13... track 13 is the background music when they were at the beach.. haha... darn relaxing...

shaking certain things outta my head... like... counting down to ORD almost everyother day.. makes me feel like i'm gg off soon... which is totally wrong.. haha...
ppl ard me are all leaving... shuren and nelson joined the ranks of "legions"... shuren for further studies... nelson.. haha... to be a teacher.. gosh... i will miss him fer a yr before bumping into him at the NTU premises.. haha... soon joseph, hairul will be gone too... ord fer them... then dann and johnny.. before me... *grumble*... hang in there... exactly 8 more mths to go.. tt's a comforting thought... haha.... i wan my replacement to come soon!!! haha....

red... sick... green... envy....

red... red... i see red... haha... bloodshot eyes.. anger... red is the colour now... green... envy... trees... blah blah... oh well... green is the colour of things to come.. haha! i can't seem to do things that i wan to do... i need to watch my words... i'm binded by restrictions... Shrunks.. this sucks.. haha...
there are so many things gg on... i can't seem to get my life in order... =GEM= is alive!!... surely and slowly draining my energy away... i refused to accept that it was before that... but now... i see it all so more clearly... i can't grasp the concept of how the puny little brain of mine works... haha... and worse... i'm being reminded of stuff whenever certain things occur... crap... need a betta brain... haha...



does it sound all so foreign to u?? haha... tt's the way its meant to be.... its my jargon... sorry peeps.. u guys will have to take a back seat this time ard... haha...



its alive... its alive.... haha....



i'm dying under the pile of work... 3 dialogue sessions... 4 meetings... argh... it ain't fun when u're the one doing all the recording... and for goodness sake... my grasp of the english language is terrible....



nnnnooooooooo.... my stomach doesn't feel that good now... must have been eating too much lately... time to watch my weight and wat i eat.... oooOooooooooOoo.... feeling sick.....

most prob red... now amber leh...

One pt to clarify.. having a dark and gloomy blog doesn't reflect my mood k... haha... just that i'm too lazy to change the layout and colour schemes from almost 2 yrs back.. haha...

Btw, eve.. i ain't sad or anything..as u wrongly predicted.. coz i wasn't expecting anything in return lar.. i juz realised it yest... slow huh.. haha.. so now i'm fine.. fine... v fine.. okie.. juz abit tired.. zzz... haha... but still a little confuse lar...

Work is tiring.. and to think that i've only been back at work for a week.. too many events coming up nxt week... got loads of running and paperwork to complete.. prepare this... prepare that.. okie.. so i ain't realli the main player with the cards.. but with so many stuff on hand.. i guess every little bit counts in the added list of "To-Do"... haha... seeing "urgent" on papers is even scarier.. Hey.. i ain't suparman k.. neither am i spideyman or battyman.. haha...

And yes.. i gotta learn to be less long-winded and naggy... if not i'm juz gg to turn everyone i know off... haha...

confusion... thoughts running... relaxing...

Okie, i'm blogging once more... Been doing loads of thinking... Just to fuill u up, i've been on a week leave last week.. needed some time-off from work and to go for a trip with my jc frens... well... its been a fruitful and enjoyable trip... y fruitful u might ask... coz at least i took my mind off work... but in the end, was loaded with other thoughts... anywae... today was back at work and for once, i din have to drag myself to office like any other monday morning, so i guess the trip paid off...

Just a little something from my trip.... Hm, 4 days... 3 nites of suffering slping on a hard "bed" if i could even call it one... Gers who spend $$ like there's no tmr... nah, kidding on that point... to round up the trip, i got attacked by the flu bug... and now i'm coughing and still suffer from the occasionalm "reminder calls" from my nose... darn... during the trip, although its juz a small little trip to m'sia as some of u might snudge it off aside, but i guess i realised loads of stuff... Seen the side of ppl that i've nv seen before.... Minor stuff that magnifies into real big stuff...

Bob, a quote for you.... "Like the leaves that fall, love will pick me up once more...."

Anywae, as i was saying... Been doing alot of thinking... not that i wanna think... but i'm a thinker.. should there be a moment that i dun think, i thk there's something wrong with me... i'm confused once again... darn... CAN'T i ever be certain on something????!!! I dunno wats wrong with me... Since that day... i thought i could juz put it aside coz i interpreted it as over... but now someone comes along the way and tells me that the race is still on??? i dunno wats the status now... haha... gosh, am i blur or wat? i need to listen properly... I NEED BETTA LISTENING SKILLS......... i think i need to chill off a little........ yes... tt's wat i need.... directional signs.... traffic lights.... road blocks... gosh... wat the hell am i saying???

Gropping my way in the dark

Courage can bring me only this far

Unspoken strength i seek

has it forsaken me?