i blurted it out!

Well.. I’m glad I blurted everything out… now the pic is clear and I feel much much betta… I guess…Hm, time can be a double-edged sword.. it works both for and against you… at least now that I’ve said it out, the load that has been consuming part of my life is gone… althou’ things were not in the right direction (I kinda expected things to go in the other direction.. was mentally prepared for it...), but nonetheless i’m still happy that some things remain unchanged…(or has it changed???) Could this juz be a temporary feeling that I’m trying to hide? Am I trying to numb myself be void of all emotions? Hm, I’m asking myself this question but I guess mine’s as good as urs.. I dun think so.. I think I’m really fine… Eve, if u’re reading this… I think u know wat happened lar huh…no prizes for guessing… hahahah… Anywae, I’ve juz finished reading alvin’s blog (training unit one lar…) and althou he doesn’t come across to me as a supa intelligent person, it seems that he has a natural flair for writing (minus all the grammatical errors and stuff…). I din know he makes such witty observations and remarks.. He takes my breath away… hahaha… kidding.. and to think that such observations are things that have escaped my eyes… darn… hahaha..

“Patience will lead u to greatness… Play your cards close and wait for the right
time… You should be strong to overcome any obstacles… Its all up in ur mind…”

i'm still learning.... still grasping... still resolving... still... still....