X'mas Celebrations!!

Its tt time of the yr once again!! Where we spread joy.. (no.. not collecting ang bao...) Its X'mas!! Merry X'mas everyone!!

Right, so a recap of the events that happened over the weekends...

Date : Sat 24th Dec

Time : 1330 (for helpers..)

Venue : In a secluded area of paya lebar.. @ lorna's hse lar dud..

Okie, so we had some miscommunication and misundertanding that arose within days of the event which almost threatened to throw all plans into array.. but we managed to deal with it all a step at a time.. So.. Preparation time!! .. I won't touch much on this coz nothing realli transpired.. ehrm.. i'm commenting.. lorna doesn't know anything bout' her kitchen and bout' cooking.. haha.. thk the rest of the helpers had a betta knowledge of cooking.. okie, mayb eve can join lorna in the "CMI cooking" classes.. And fang made customised santa hats for all us with our names / short form... way cool!

So it began... BBQ started.. the pit was way huge.. did not prepare enuff charcoal (my fault...) I din realli help in the bbq-in (opps).. din eat realli much.. dunno y too.. health conscious? haha... Pics speak a thousand words.. so i thk i will pose some of the pics when i get them frm pd.. hmm.. there was a mini drinking session that took place.. i thot i was safe from alcohol coz i was driving (rem, if u drink dun drive).. but eve's sis's bf's family members din let the guys go without at least a mouthful.. i had 1.5 cups and they wanted me to drink even more.. lucky thing lorna dragged me out sia.. *phew..* i guess i juz ain't comfortable rejecting the older generation (no offence intended if u sense any)

Ahem! okie, highlight!! highlight and most impt thing of the day - gift exchange (the guys are suppose to buy for the gals.. and vice versa.. all allocations of personnel were done via balloting)...! Things went smoothly.. luckily.. for the guys, kudos to all of u for making everything a wonderful nite with our plans; the presents and flowers all went well.. superbly well i wld add.. And bob, u've done it! U've given SC the most wonderful x'mas present she ever got from x'mas..(quoted from her blog..) See, have a lil tiny wee bit of confidence in urself.. it does wonders.. not onli for u but also for the others.. (u cld tell from sc's face that she was the happiest living person on earth at tt specific moment.. ) haha.. Hmm, as for the guys' presents.. all of the shirts looked realli nice.. hmm.. thereafter, it was adjourning for the nite.. as we retreated back to lorna's hse.. A pity i din stay for long coz i had another stay over @ ming's hse on the 25th.. i figured out that i wld realli be darn tired if i actually stayed on @ lorna's hse...

Well, after fang and wing gave out their x'mas cards... i felt realli bad at not giving anything extra.. haha.. so i sent out personalised sms to each and everyone.. thanking them in diff ways.. cool eh..

Imagine if this celebration did not work out.. it wld have been disastrous.. We stuck together and weathered the miniature storm.. "Its the beginning of many good things to come..."

Date : Sunday...
Details : i'm too tired to type it out.. basically.. it was juz a very simple nite.. with the gathering of frens.. did nothing much.. but i guess i did catch up with a certain few.. which was juz so nice...

moving to aust?

As i type this entry on a chilly sunday nite.. i do it with a heavy heart...

Becoz tmr's monday.. its been a week away from work (okie, i still got sms and calls) but at least i wasn't checkin e-mails... A week of simple, plain fun.. and now all's back to square one...

Fri's meeting with zhiyi was pretty hilarious.. haha.. sharing the moments of flashbacks thru out the 5 yrs.. and also sharing insights... Ha, hte same thing happened to her.. she met her sec sch frens in the coffee corner.. unexpected meetings.. haha.. tt seems to be the tune at the moment eh.. and i keep running into ppl...haha..

Sat's meeting with eve and pd.. hmm.. tt day was totally crappy.. i told eve of a certain decision i had made a couple of days back.. and pd juz listened on..(coz i already told the guys).. haha.. and wo-ho! Eve's attached..! the president it so gg to be the first to be kicked out.. at least she's leading by example.. hmm.. and i speculated that pd will be attached in 2 yrs time... haha..

Well, during the 2 days.. we touched on the issue of me leaving s'pore.. to settle down in aust.. hai.. as we spoke.. thoughts.. emotions juz ran thru.. honestly, i wld find it difficult to uproot myself to move to aust.. but i also can't bear to see my family split into 2 lands.. at least.. i can't imagine leaving my parents if they do decide that aust will be the nxt step..
Wat if.. wing and ching man decides to head back to HK, lorna decides to study overseas.. and me.. moving to aust.. the grp will be left with onli the handful.. anywae.. tt was juz a thought.. u nv know.. things might nv even happen...

Jokes.. Irony.. Shoppin

Joke.. A big fat joke! That's the term which i wld use to describe the day...

First and foremost.. the person who wanted our help to buy presents ended up gg home early.. and not to mention, empty handed.. yes... tt was Bob... The rest of the guys set out knowing wat to get for the gift exchange.. and it was onli him who had no idea... so being naturally nice.. we decided to go out and get the presents.. the rest of us went back with our stuff while bob.. yes.. grr.. nvm bout him... he kinda put me off today.. okie, i admit.. its not onli me.. it was us.. he wasn't even trying to look for one.. it was like.. he was dazzled.. in a world of his own.. i tried so hard to motivate him.. as pd can attest to the fact but i was drenched with cold water by bob replies.. Of course, he will argue that he's trying realli hard and that ppl will nv like the presents that he has chosen.. wat the heck.. i dun have the natural flair of chosing presents unlike wing... or the very patience of pd... but at least i tried my best.. i was struggling to help him.. not to mention myself...grr.. there's still more comments.. but i dun thk its nice to publish it here on my blog...

Then came the joke of the day.. soon after bob left.. we headed for far east.. for dinner.. and we ran into the gals.. lorna, eve, fang and their fren.. sitting in the same eatery.. *jaws drop*...
i juz cldn't believe it.. who wld have thot thursday was a safe day for shopping.. hai.. nvm.. mixed emotions ran thru me.. apprehension, confusion, etc... i juz cldn't believe my eyes.. crap.. No, it isn't wat u are thking.. its juz that.. too many things have happened during the entire course of the day... i juz wasn't enable to absorb it like a sponge.. it was.. like.. an overload.. It was juz a day filled with coincidences, where wing saw his cousin at the very same eatery.. and i saw familiar faces whilst in far east.. and also heeren..

Oh well... looking forward to nxt sat.. hope it will be a eventual celebration... shit.. i'm still left with another 8 more presents to get.. i'm dead...

X'mas was nv so stressful.....

Walkin the lonely road...

Okie, its time to put an end to all of this... all this while, being dazzled by the confusion that surrounds me and my life... its time...

I've decided!! i'm gg to come out of this stronger.. betta.. (okie, mayb not betta)... but at least now i know which way i'm headed.. I'm simply not ready for any of this... as much as i wished the road would not be long and lonely.. but I'm really not... really not ready.. thking simply brings me back to ol' times when i thk i failed terribly thru' out the 1.5 yrs... i was immature.. i was rash.. i was.. rubbish... I'm not gg to let this bog me down further.. Now i want to walk this road alone... snap out of all this illusion that others had been incarcating me with... I'm not gg to be swayed...(ya.. u ppl get the pt already...).. so instead of urging me.. y not show ur encouragement?

Pls refrain urself from making any more comments.. thanks.. would really appreciate it..

Now, i feel so much betta... i'm gg to enjoy every bit of my life..

I juz wan things to be back to normal.. back to the way it was... before the entire eposide started.. Just let it be will ya??

"隐形人" - 孙燕资

One of my Fav Songs for the moment..

Turbulent Times of late

Wow, its been slightly over a month since i last blogged.. Din realised it was TT long..

Where shld i begin first? Hmm, well.. to sum it all up, its been a pretty turbulent period tt i've had to endure lately.. Both at work and in my personal capacity.. Hm, but i shall start the entry with some great news! I've looked thru the calender and it appears that i'm only left with roughly 9 more working weeks to go after i clear my leave and mind u, i've actually planned out my leave schedule for yr 06! My replacement shld be coming nxt month which i'm eagerly anticipanting... hope he's good..

Okie, now for the not so spirit-lifting news.. nothing's realli been smooth sailing at work of late.. i can't seem to conc on my work and tt spells trouble.. Mdm put in across as "holiday mood" during lunch the other day but i beg to differ, i'm not in the mood, much less to say for ORD mood. Dan's last day wld be this friday (16th) while johnny is starting to clear his leave as well.. the 113th intake is gg off soon while the 114th are waiting in the wings.. Surprise surprise, johnny's signing on as a regular civilian officer, if he's selected, he wld be counting down my ORD instead of me doing it for him.. ha!

1st Dec - D&D @ orchard hotel... the food was okie, the MC was excellent! According to mdm's resouces, the MC is one of the top 3 in s'pore. Woah! Too bad i walked home empty-handed.. Well, i had the consolation door gift to fall back on.. so...cheers~

Outside work - i'm confused... i'm outwitted this time by my frens.. i'm on the losing end.. nxt move.. wat nxt move??? I'm not gg to waver.. juz remain on my foot.. Haha... kidding.. Mayb i shdl juz ignore other's comments and juz conc on my own path.. i shld not be swayed by other's inputs.. Hmm.. mayb i shld speak to zhiyi soon.. she's the ever trusty counsellor i can turn to advice and vice versa for her lar.. I realised i'm a good listener but not a good advicer.. Shrunks..

I'm on a week's leave.. juz rotting @ home.. if u wonder y.. i'm trying to clear my leave.. tt's y..so i took time to give my blog a "face-lift"..

Someone out there give me a sign.. show me the direction.. i'm quite lost lately... pls...