COS.. devasted...

i'm not in the best of moods.. glen juz told me a piece of really bad news this afternn.. and this would affect my future greatly.. coz it affects my COS (cert of service).. i will most prob get a "unsatisfactory" or at most a "satisfactory" grading... which is like.. a grade "e" and "d" respectively.. y? Juz becoz i've been thru a disciplinary case before..

It set me thking.. y am i working so hard? I shld juz do the minimal.. and not embark on any other special projects e.g. "Taboo Singapore".. I should not care so much for the HT thingy.. my future is already set.. i see no pt in doing the stuff well anymore.. y izzit that i can't be graded on my performance after the case? I'm not arrogrant or wat.. but i thk i stand amongst the best SCs / PNSFs that u can find..

Just fyi, the COS affects the work interview in future.. I'll look realli bad with such a grade.. I'm totally devastated.. seriously... if i'm not a "A" grade worker.. I'm at least a "B"... tt's something tat i'm pretty sure of...

Totally devastated..